How do you do that.....

How do you do that?

Act like you don't care, 

like you don't feel anything?

Because I can't do that.

I feel.

I feel everything.

~jz

I feel like.....

I feel like I'm a balloon waiting to burst

I need, I want, I desire so much

Yet I have to control it and stiffle it

I want to know why, who says, how dare them

Holding back feelings, emotions, and affection

is not something I want to do

I am not good at it

I want to let it all out

I want to enjoy every moment I have

I want to scream really loud

I want to cry until I shake

I want to laugh until my stomach hurts

I want to make love until I cry tears of pleasure

~jz

Today I feel better than yesteray.....

Today I feel better than yesterday, 

Tomorrow I will feel better than today, 

 I know my dreams will come true, 

Simply because I believe they will.  

❤jz

I woke.....

I woke with the thought

Of what today will bring,

What will I accomplish,

Maybe not one thing,

But I am, and I shall see,

What life continues to bring,

I hope it’s good for all that I love,

I hope it makes me sing!

~jz

Stay

Stay with me, as I stay with you,

          Don't go against me, there is no malice within me,

              

              I am on your side, more than I will let you know,

          Love me, as I will protect you to the death.

~jz

               

As I watch you.....

As I watch you get dressed for work

I admire your devotion

As I watch you fix things that are broken

I admire your talent

As I watch you cook a meal

I admire your enthusiasm

As I watch you eat the food

I admire your enjoyment

As I smell your scent on your pillow

I desire your kiss


~jz

I hope and pray.....

Johnny

I hope and pray

I'll see you again some day

I'll take your hand in mine

And tell you all you left behind

I do not like being here without you

So many songs I can not listen to

 I laugh at times and then suddenly 

 I stop because you are not here with me

I'm sad and my tears never dry

Just the thought of you still makes me cry

We could have had so much fun

Seeing what our kids become 

We could have helped each other
I miss you so, my brother.

~Joyce~

While I slept.....

While I slept I wrote the poem

I had it memorized repeated it over and over

Told myself get up and write it down

My eyes would not open

I must wake and grab my pen and paper

Morning will come and I will have forgotten

But I kept dreaming and repeating the poem

Now it's gone

Hiding in my subconsious

No where to be found

Not coming to the surface

Come back to me lovely words

~jz

If I had the chance.....

If I had the chance

To have more sons

I'd name them Jack or Henry 

Maybe in another life

Wherever they may send me

~jz

My love is deep.....

My love is deep

My love is strong

Inside me I'll keep

You my life long

~jz

I hope and I pray.....

I hope and I pray
They'll know the truth someday

They'll know the real story
The'll remember days of glory

They'll see the whys and the wherefores

They won't judge anymore
They will be proud and grateful

They will see how they were adored
I hope and I pray
There will come a day

~jz

It has always been my way.....

It has always been my way

If I love you I will stay

Just you and never stray

My only vow to you I'd say

If my love should go away

And I find another some day

I will tell you without delay

Not to hurt you in any way

~jz

What do you want from me.....

What do you want from me?

More loving care and intimacy?

I gave you my heart and soul.

Just ask your heart and see.

It's there for you always
waiting ever so silently.

♥jz

I dreamt of you last night.....

I dreamt of you last night

It was so real

I felt you kissing me

Our lips touching

I felt your embrace

Our bodies pressed together

And then came ectasy

~jz

Look at me.....

Look at me

Into my soul

See who I am

Touch me

Hold me

See who I am

Don't judge me

I feel deeply

See who I am

I will love you

As much as I can

See who I am

I did what I could do

Judging me

Is not for you

~jz

I lay in bed and.....